Think and Know

Riding my life
Like a run-a-way train
Moving from
One track to that
Howling, crying,
Screaming at the moon
Only my voice came back
Only the echo came back

When I was a boy
Daddy told me
Grow tall
Yes and Billy don't crawl
Taught me how to ride
Set me out on my own
And I never came back

Billy Idol, "Prodigal Blues"

Simple

Can’t get over the change
It is surprising.
Whilst (see?) the environment seems similar
All speaks to a shadowy conjuration
Of what was know or believed.
Deep down though I know
That it is I who was threaded with the phantasmal
And is now simply shining thru.

You can Laugh at the End

On the edge of the frayed ends 
Is a fancy ritual like a dance of madmen
They know that the shaking 
Won’t save them
But if you are going to be getting 
A set of bloody knuckles
Bring it all on like a song

I couldn’t say what this unsure feeling
Was born from
It takes a while feeling fallible  
To see it as just the way we live
I want to laugh in the hollows
Getting the rigid manic 
Chuds
To just shut the hell up! 

The Ecology of the Mind Flayer

The ecology of the mind flayer
As told by someone who ought to know
by Roger Moore, from Dragon Magazine #78.  Good Old AD&D!  Shit...

It wasn’t so much the way the visitor looked as the way he appeared – the assembled adventurers had expected him to enter through the doorway like everyone else. The visitor instead faded into being from the very air itself in the center of the room, as hardened warriors and cynical thieves stepped back from the apparition in fear.

It was Melakar the White-Bearded who first recovered his bearing. He cleared his throat and stepped toward the visitor. “Greetings, and welcome,” he began. “We sent messengers into the astral plane asking for those who would, for a price, tell us about the race known as mind flayers, to satisfy our own curios-“

The visitor hissed between thin lips, and the mage stopped and paled. “Don’t play with me,” said the visitor. “You and your guests are planning to raid a mind flayer lair you’ve heard rumor of, and you are desperate to know more about the creature beforehand. Surely, old fool, you didn’t think to hide that from a telepath, and especially from a githyanki knight.” After a moment the visitor smiled wickedly, and his pointed teeth gleamed. “Ah, you did think you could hide it.” The githyanki looked at the adventurers around him. “None of you can hide anything from me! Take your hands from your weapons! Should you do the least harm to me, the vengeance of the githyanki will destroy you all!”

Slowly the adventurers around the room forced themselves to relax. The githyanki warrior also assumed a calmer posture, and then turned back to the mage.

“Speak quickly. The gravity of your world tortures me, and even thoughts of your gold do not give me great comfort.” 

“Where do the illithids, whom men call the mind flayers, come from?” asked the mage in a trembling voice.

The githyanki’s eyes narrowed. “Mind flayers are not of your world. They are not of any known world. They have been traveling the planes for so long, not even they know where they come from. From a secure base underground or from a darkened planet they send out projections of themselves to new prime material planes, scouting and searching for a new realm to conquer and enslave. 

“Once a realm is discovered, it is doomed; the mind flayers have one of their number remain projected at the new plane while others use their psionic powers to enter the Silver Realm, that which you call the astral plane. These others then follow the scout’s silver cord to the entry point to the new plane, use psionic science to enter that plane, and begin bringing about its downfall. Our mages believe their lost home plane was anti-magical, and that they possess the same nature, for they resist magical influences so strongly that even the most accomplished wizards are taxed to slay them.”

“Why do they live only in darkness?” asked an elf. “I’ve heard they can walk about in the sun like any other monster.”

“Wrong. The illithids cannot tolerate light except in faint intensities. Their eyes are not like those of humans or elves; they have solid white abominations in place of eyes, with no pupils visible. Our scholars have tested and dissected these eyes, and we find that they focus light in a strange manner, so that a sudden bright light will overwhelm the visual nerves and leave the creature in agony. We have found that a magical light spell cast successfully upon an illithid’s eyes will send it into spasms. When blinded like this, it is in too much pain to use its psionic powers, and is helpless and easily slain.”

The githyanki suddenly turned to his left. “You are correct,” he said to a silent dwarven warrior, who gasped and stuttered.  

The githyanki continued, cutting off the dwarf’s response. “You were assuming that the mind flayers can see into the minds of others as I can, and you are right. For me, the power came as a gift of fate; for them, it is natural to all. However, they cannot understand the thoughts they receive, and furthermore do not care to understand them. They know only their own secret tongue and the languages of their allies under the earth.

“The power they have to read minds is used only to communicate among themselves, each illithid reading the passing thoughts of the other and thinking its own thoughts to be read in turn, and so forth. They are also known to use this talent to detect the presence of other beings, usually intruders in their cities and lairs. True speech they save for their rare communications with non-illithids. They may also cry out from the pain of a light in their eyes, or when cerebral parasites drain their psionic powers.”

The dwarf’s face tightened and looked more grim than usual. “You would do well to confine your prying to others,” he growled. “What I think is none of your business.”

The githyanki leaned back and shrieked, in what seemed like a laugh. “None of my business? Fools! Everything here is my business - I wouldn’t have come if it were not! You sought a being who knew all the strengths and weaknesses of the mind flayers, and you got me. Who better to ask, you thought, than the greatest enemies of the brain-eaters?
The githyanki - the people of Gith, who led us out of slavery and into the Silver Realm, out of the claws and tentacles of the mind flayers! We know more of mind flayers than you would learn yourselves in a lifetime.”

A skeletal finger stabbed out at the audience; jeweled armbands jingled and loose brown wrappings swayed from his arms. “I read blind stupidity in all of you. Half of you believe that you need only rush up and hack at them with your pitiful swords, and the rest of you think that your magic will turn the trick.” 

The githyanki glanced toward the ceiling, then leveled his head again. “I’ll tell you what I saw. I saw a mind flayer hit directly with a wizard’s fireball spell, and the spell died out! Lightning and cold are almost always wasted on them, as though the attack was never made. They shrug off magic as one of you would brush away a bothersome insect. I saw a githyanki warrior older than any of you here, even you elves, charge a mind flayer - and in seconds it ruined his brain with blasts of mental energy. Three times it hit him - three times! The warrior was dead before he took ten more steps. It took five warriors more to bring the brain-eater down, and I was the only one of the five to come away with my brain and mind still intact.”

The room was silent, and the githyanki continued. “Yes, brain-eater. That’s what
I said. Illithids relish the brains of humans and similar beings the way you eat the meat of cattle and fowl. To them, eating brains is a symbolic gesture. All illithids believe that they are the master race, the true and rightful rulers of all sentient creatures. They have no kinship to humanity or any other known race. They worship no gods, because they deem
themselves the ones who should be worshipped. 

“Being as intelligent as they are, endowed with psionic powers, and as physically weak as they are, the illithids believe that the mind is everything and all-important.” The githyanki tapped the yellowed skin of his temple with a bony finger. “To eat the brain of another race is the ultimate symbol of dominion over that race. They consume that which is important to them. Their tentacles have bony ridges that cut flesh and bone with ease, exposing the inside of the skull. Many collect the skulls of their victims and adorn their bodies with the trophies.

“They have a psionic power that especially helps them achieve their evil ends
- a power of domination that they use with pleasure on their victims and those who would attack them. This domination power allows the mind flayer to control every movement of a single victim, to an unlimited extreme. Once, on a raid to an illithid lair, I saw a githyanki captain run himself through with his own sword while under the control of one of them. They would have a far easier time doing the same thing to one of you.” The
githyanki stopped and scanned the room with an expressionless gaze.

No one spoke when the warrior paused. His golden armor glinted in the torchlight, and dazzling gems of a dozen pure colors flashed from his rings, bracelets, and armor as he stood waiting. 

“Come, come,” the knight prodded. “I can read a hundred questions in your minds. Ask them out, so I may be paid.”

A halfling shifted in his chair. “You said that the . . . illithids . . . live in cities?” he whispered.

The githyanki nodded. “Cities buried deep under the earth, in caverns wider than you would imagine. Each world has only one major illithid city, but many smaller outposts are set up elsewhere in the underlands. The mind flayer lair you intend to assault is but one of many this world supports, and you are nowhere near the major city.”

“Where is their major city in this world?” called a priest, taking a step toward the githyanki.

The warrior shifted slightly, perhaps a shrug. “Later. Ask again when you have more gold.”

“Please, at least tell us more about their cities,” beseeched Melakar. 

“I can tell you what I have seen. The great cities of the mind flayers are nothing like those you inhabit. They force slaves to carve the structures out of living rock, and then slay all the workers afterward. They use few stairways or ramps because each one can float its body by psionic means and use another psionic power to slow its fall. With these powers they can raise themselves up to escape enemies, and cross underground rifts and rivers without slowing.

“An illithid city is a sight no one forgets. Out of the darkness of a great chamber rise their stone towers, outlined by patches of softly glowing spores that have attached themselves here and there. No sound can be heard from within, except the chittering of their wererat friends and the deep, echoing growls of other creatures who roam their streets.

“They keep terrible guardians. Wererats, beholders, and grimlocks work with them - the beholders on somewhat of a more even basis than the other two races, which are used as fighters in the illithids’ wars. Their cities are open to some devils and the rakshasas, but these are rarely seen. Hellcats will serve them, mites will inhabit the ruins around them, and they are known to sometimes employ ogre magi.

“All of these horrible allies have one thing in common - they are not creatures an illithid would eat. Beholders are protected by their armor. Ogre magi can heal their own wounds, wererats are poisoned with the disease of lycanthropy, grimlocks are scaled and foul to the taste, mites are all but brainless, and the rest of their cohorts are all spirits from other planes.

“Why do they keep allies if they are so powerful? Because illithids prefer others to do their fighting and their physical labors, and wish to have a delaying force to hold off intruders while the cowards flee further into their city. A mind flayer city has many surprises, especially in the remote interior.”

Melakar pulled at his beard and said in a conversational tone, “I’ve heard that githzerai also work-“

The githyanki screamed. Melakar shrank back, aghast.

“Githzerai! Mad, traitorous wretches! Rot their souls in eternal flame! They claim kinship with us, the true people of Gith, yet they betray us all by allying themselves with the slavers! Blind they are, and mad for thinking the illithids will not deceive them. If the illithids are good for one thing, let it be for eating the brains of the githzerai - and yours as well!”

Enraged, the githyanki unsheathed his sword faster than anyone could react. Melakar barely had time to jump back as the sword-point swished in an arc at the level of his neck. In the next instant, the warriors around the room drew their weapons and hefted them for a charge at the mad visitor . . . 

. . . who was no longer there. Just as quickly as he arrived, the githyanki was gone, the sound of his battle-scream lingering briefly after his body disappeared. 

“Has he gone for good?” the halfling said anxiously, looking around the room.
“He didnít even get his gold.”

Melakar sat down, trembling. The questioning had not gone at all the way he thought it would. No one else spoke, and he looked up at the halfling.

“I wish I knew, my friend. We may not sleep well for many nights to come.” Or, thought Melakar, perhaps for many nights more than that. Time passes slowly in the astral plane, and githyanki memories are long. . . . 

Special Tides

There is much that I have lately been touched by.
My world had both grown larger, and come more sharp.
Seeing truths that I had before but guessed.
Strange how normal and near expected the changes of life,
Once their mantel worn, does ride.

Of foremost matter is the nearness of something More in regards to Little Beauty
Things as the are cannot be abided.  
Wishing and trying to make things better as a civil choice has failed.
Some would say me a fool to had tried. I had to. No more.
I have been wrong in my past. I know I can be testing.
Of late I have been misjudged. Sharply so.
I know that the one doing the insulting and the petty, though passionate, 
Self deluding
Knows this too. Knows the unfairness. The overblown quality of the cries.
For as sure as I have been wrong, I am now in right.
It can be saddening to think of such childish silliness to somehow be thought 
To pass as sane and responsible discourse.
It can be uncomfortable to have lies be propped up to be taken as truth.
Under it all though is something more important and bright than
Sadness or Discomfort.
There is Hope. And a glimpse of something magical to come.
So with good friends and belief in a better future, I easily smile
Letting the filth of panic words rattle in their smallness.
Maybe after the changes have come, they will be again at least calm.

That being the worthy challenge, there has also been rejuvenation.
While away I had taken a break from my favored of Flows.
Now, with long time collaborators, we have reawaked this our art.
To tell truth, all the ladies whose smiles I have enjoyed, 
All the twisted tipsy wonderments I have brushed
Even the strange skies I have seen
Take nothing away from my first passion, 
The Creating and the Telling. The simple and fun filled Sharing.
Just the newness of all the well known parts once added together.
Speaks as if an epiphany  
Making sense of these challenging times

It is that sense of something good, around, ahead, that most fills me.
Positive mindset and the ability to move forward have been mine
This seems like a paradigm shift. Where the hoped becomes the lived.
Everything is better. I know, I know. Here we go again with the 
‘It’s all good, baby!’
But it is. Not in a way of dreams. No.
Getting up and heading out in the cold morn to work feels like an adventure.
Having the simple pleasure of free thoughts and learning is a gift.
And facing entrenched ignorance a calling to stance, easy endured 
For it allows things to change to as they must be.

All this and I still get to blog as an excuse to post cuties!
Lastly, a small note:
When I am assailed with correspondence filled with rudeness and reaching spite, 
Do you know what upsets me the most?
The poor grammar and improper spelling!  
The peace that comes with not rising to every barb is all encompassing.

The good stuff is coming. Wait.

The sweetest drips of pure calm sneak into the day as it fades to the night
Darkness smudging the marred edges. Dreams and quiet thoughts now unfolding
As the days troubles and worries have tired themselves out, leaving the mind at peace
The soul at rest.
I can remember scenes which seem impossible.
Feelings and sensations.
That now shine alien in some way, but treasured deeply.
Some speak to how people used to be. Me. Them.  
These memories of reaction and intention are so full of simple happiness
Like there is a hidden rail, on which we ride as we travel.
Sometimes in step and other times at odds.
All going to the same place.
I just feel really good.

Dare

Yes. 

Dare.

To do.

What needs to be done.

Don't let fear, or doubt, or wishful thinking

Take you from the path you know is right.

Have hope that people will do what is right, not petty.

Keep your faith that caring will lead to fairness

But just make sure you are ready to fight the just fight

When the battle is set apon you

This is a wonderful start to a new year.  

A new mindset.