"Suckie Suckie?" 

Sing the Truth or Hum the Worst

Another simple moment of reflection leading to the sudden and nearly violent perversion of the illusionary safety folding and caressing my sadistically glowing brittle miniature sense of self and world domination plans. Pass the beer nuts.

ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn 

Wanna Race?

The evil flows so silently tonight. My veins are pumping. The booze is there. But I feel no draw. No end. No, …Next. It doesn’t matter. It never has. But the evil is there. It always has been. Do I like it? Do I need it? Do I care about it? No one thinks of himself or herself in the face of IT so you can never attain a personal outlook on this.
Basically, we race unwittingly towards the finish line, blind to the scenery and oblivious to the competition. Pity. I bet we look good with the attempt.

"Wasted and Wounded" 

Feel the Way

Nothing is ever simple, and I think that is something we sould all be thankful for. The test of things is what gives us our chance to be better. Learning and growing are not the only goals in a personal sense, and the future isn't anything but a bet. So roll with the punches, explore the needs and dreams and wants. Remember to smile. Remember to dare. Or is it just to dare to smile? Hum? Guess there is still stuff to figure out. Good.

"this little piggy" 

Rant 003

I feel the world turning. We all know it is turning, the same way we all know lots of stuff, like other people have feelings, like there are tiny tiny tiny bugs on everything we eat, like we are all going to be dead and gone one day. And even though we all know all this stuff, we can go through life acting without this knowledge affecting our actions at all times. This is normal and needed to operate in this world sometimes. Sure, at times we realize and are affected, and certain other times we should have be conscious of these and other things. But right now I have that come-and-go awareness. Like waking up. I feel the world turn, and I am looking forward to what is coming next.

"Not as we see it." 

Mirror Mirror

Statements are dangerous. Statements of thought, feeling or desire. It is because we all think things, all day and we can actually switch and flip on subjects during an hour, day or week, especially if it is an important but difficult issue. And when we state something, that feeling, that opinion, that particular view is captured in the laying down. Does this one recording fully encapsulate a fully detailed and introspective mind? No. Like one word quickly flipped to in a book can't tell the whole story. Add to this the way we can grow, change, deal with shit and over come obstacles, and anything we leave behind us, be it a word, a picture, even a relationship, isn’t really the same now compared to the new person that greets the reflection.
I can admit I have been wrong. Very wrong. And I know I will be wrong again. But I also know that I am not always wrong and woe to any who mistakenly try to prove to me that I am.

Dare 

Seeing is believing

Last night was a nice touch of what could be. What it is for the others. Not really my style, but you could see that they were happy. That they believed in what they did. I have a hard time believing in anything. Not so much because I do not see the validity of things, I just again find it difficult to care. But I try sometimes and I can see it work in others sometimes. And that might just be enough.